So, this year is starting off with a bang of sorts. I have a new gig, with the US Air Force, working on the Bolling Air Force Base. I am currently in the San Francisco area attending a class, and am catching up with some old friends. . . . .but first this past weekend. . . . .

I was invited to one of my bartenders from Freddie's after holiday party. Such a nice affair. I brought the boy down a day early, had dinner down by the beach, looked at the ocean than ran back to the car to escape the 9 degree weather! We had a good time, shopping, hanging out and just enjoying each other's company. We were joined by some friends, and went out for a night of craziness. . .good times, late nights. . . .ahhhh Rehoboth. So, we go to this wonderful party. Good food, plenty of booze, and fun people, then head to the bars. . .and this is where things kind of fall apart. The boy decided that it was HIS vacation and wanted to have some fun. He jumped straight onto the dance floor and went at it with the first people he came in contact with, a couple from the party we had just come from. Now, I have had my issues with him before, and this is one of them. He is so free and unadulterated when he dances, he loses track of where he is and just let go. . .making out with people and being completely slutty. . . .

We got into it, I confronted him and he threw right back that I need to move on and find someone age appropriate. . fair enough, true enough. So, he decided to take off and leave us behind. Unfortunately, I had to leave early the next morning for a flight and left him behind. Probably the hardest thing I have ever done, but I had no choice. I arranged for another ride back, but haven't seen him, but he is ok and got back in time for work.

Ok, before the comments come in about what are you doing, why are you letting this stuff go on, I have it under control. .no worries. . . .ok, so now I am in the San Fran area, hooray! I spent this evening with an old friend who I haven't seen in YEARS! It was good to catch up, and hear about his wife and 2 children! So, tomorrow night is hanging with an ex, who now is dating a woman. . huh? I know! Well, to be fair, the old friend who has a wife and kids was kind of my original boy toy. He was 19 and I was 25 when we moved to Richmond together and slept together, in the same bed, and enjoyed each other ummmm, physically. I see a pattern, a pattern that was not apparent previously, seeing him again, after so many years and remembering our relationship makes me realize that I have a Daddy complex. . .yes, I know this is not surprising for you, but it is for me. I didn't think of my self as parental in any way, but now I see that I crave helping young people traverse life and learn to be about life. Weird huh? So, I see now that I need to focus back on me, back on my happiness and not teach, not guide, but live my life.

I look forward to seeing my other ex-gay ex and, the other friend, who I haven't seen since he was 16! He was a model, and is now working on getting a degree in acting. I am so excited. . then, finish the trip off with an age appropriate bar hopping spree in the Castro. . .hooray! Back in DC this weekend! Hooray for Obama!

So, I have been remiss in posting, so here's a short catch up.

I had a fabulous Wine and Cheese party last weekend, which was a big hit. I wanted to invite everyone I knew, however, my apartment being the size it is. . no more 60 people parties for me. As it was, with 25 people, the cops came twice to break it up! LOL! The sign of a truly good party (for pics, check out my albums on Facebook).

With my time off I have been able to spend more time with the boy, and I have really enjoyed myself. . .sure, we aren't dating and he considers me his best friend, but I am slowly getting used to our relationship, and have had very few melt downs in the new year. . .hooray!

Unfortunately, my bosses found me a position working for the Air Force up on Bolling Air Force base, so my extended bench time was cut short, probably a good thing too! This whole sleeping until 2 pm is for the birds! I like the sun! So, back to work I go. Of course, I worked today and Tuesday and am now off until the 2nd week in February! Hooray! First stop, REhoboth Beach, DE with the boy and some of my Freddies pals where I am attending a fabulous party hosted by some Freddies friends. Then I rush back on Sunday to catch a 3 pm flight to San Francisco for a week of training, Hooray! Then a week of training in McLain, VA and finally a week of training in Houston, TX. . .hooray? LOL.

Aside from that, just doing my thing, trying to stay in more and relax. . not drink, and actually take better care of myself. Looking forward to a kick ass year, and who knows, maybe a show will pop in there too at some time. . . .there are days I really miss doing shows, and there are days where I think to myself, do I miss it? The answer, yes. .I really do.

Peace.

A New Year Dawns!

So, now that things have calmed down and I can gain some perspective on things, I am ready to start anew this 2009. As you have read, 2008, not such a good year for me. Now I have the chance to make things good again. I finished my hell project, and have the ability to rest and relax until March 1st, when my next project starts. My boss is signing me up for training classes, not sure where yet, but am hoping to0 get some travelling in. Don't know what my next assignment will be, but am hoping for 1) Non Government 2) travel. I didn't give up acting to drive back and forth to Baltimore!

The home life is good. The boy is still with me, and our friendship is becoming pretty tight. Its tough, I would love to bring him out and about with me, meet more of my friends, but being 19, the options are limited. Having someone to cuddle with, and spend time with, go to dinner and such has made me lax in my quest to find love in DC, but they always say it happens when you are not looking. ..well fate, I am not looking, lay it on me! :)

I am focusing on making some positive changes in my life. Having 2 months off of work could play out quite badly for me and my party boy ways, and I am focusing on not letting that happen, on reading more, working out more and having more intimate gatherings of movies and games rather than beer and whiskey fests. Fear not, I am not going to get all lame and what not, just need to grab the reins and reflect on the crappy situations partying has gotten me into and how to deflect those situations in 2009.

All and all, I hope to bring more smiles than "awww's" in my blog and hope to make some awesome memories this year. Happy New Year all!

Tales for Furry Land

So, here I am at the Midwest FurFest with the boy and his best friend. Conference is definitely interesting. Its amazing to me how gung-ho these people are with there furry personas. Its really kind of cool. I must admit, I haven't taken in as much as I could have, I have felt a bit out of place, but the more I take in, the more I want to see. Its such a tight nit community. They really seem to care about each other, and keep up with each other's lives and its so nice to see.
The location is pretty crappy, however, stuck out in the middle of nowhere in Wheeling, IL. The hotel is nice, and accomidating for all of the furry events, however, trying to get to Chicago without a car just isn't happening. Trying to find reasonable food without a car, again, not happening.
I have been using the time to try to relax and unwind, took me 2 days, but I am feeling more like myself. . more relaxed, still emotionally confused about things with the boy, but happy to see him in his element, being revered by his friends. One of his friends actually thanked me for taking him in and giving him a home, which made me feel pretty good.
The start of this trip sucked, not going to lie. Got a call from work 10 minutes before boarding, and ended up missing my plane trying to solve a problem that could not be solved over the phone, then arrived in Chicago at the wrong airport (Chicago Midway, NOT OHare) then, when I called the boy for a ride, he said it would take them about 1.5 hours to come get me, which at 10 at night, was NOT an option for me, so I decided to get a cab. 175 for a cab to the hotel 175!! Luckily, (and i haven't used THAT word in a while) a limo driver happened to be lurking around and came up to me and said he would drive me for 85 bucks. . .still a lot, but I decided it would be better than trying to rent a car. . .why you may ask? I have no idea, but being exhausted and stressed out from work, I thought it was the best option.
I arrived and we went to the convention hotel and hung out for a bit. .a few furries were out and about and I got my first taste. Then, we ended up back at the hotel at around 4 in the morning. The next morning, we got up at 8 and started the day. Headed to get some art supplies, headed to the convention, hung out . . .the boy and his friend are artists so they worked in the art room most of the day, leaving me to try to keep myself entertained. . it was tough, not knowing anyone, just wandering around. . .I did my best, but got bored after a while. So, they ended up dropping me off at the hotel, and worked until around 4 in the morning again. Today, well i had every intention of hopping on the Metra (Chicago metro) and meeting up with my old high school bud to hang out and check out Chicago. . .well, I of course, am staying on the only line that does not run on the weekends, and him without a car, I was stuck here. . . to watch movies, and try not to wake the sleeping wonder twins.
We are finally off to hang back at the convention and attend a birthday party for one of their furry friends. . . we are pre-gaming a bit, and my liver is really happy to have liquor again. . having not had any since Thursday!
Ok, am hoping for some better stories for my next post, and maybe a picture or two, if you are lucky.

Birthday Eve.

So, it is the eve of my 39th birthday. . ugh 39!? Still single, still wading my way through a crappy job. . but hey, I got my health right? And an abundnace of awesome friends and family who truly care and want me to be happy. So, why the stick in the mud attitude? Well, I guess I am just disturbed at how unsettled I am at this point in my life, and how unstable things are. Am I moving to San Diego? Am I going to fly back and forth? Did it fall through? All questions I am dying to get the answer to.
In a moment of dire stupidity, I opened an invitation to the boy to move out to San Diego with me, of which he was exstatic. Why, you may ask, would I do something stupid like that? Well, my heart is living this fantasy that we are a couple, even though the reality is that we are not. Having said that, it is comforting to know that I will not be starting that adventure (should it come to fruition) alone.
The life of a travelling consultant is seriously leaving me feeling empty inside. Having to give up my passion of theater for the unstable schedule I keep. The continued threats of having to travel keeps me from saying screw it and auditioning. I never thought I would come to a point in my life that theater would be taken away from me, but here I am. Theater will be there when I return, and I WILL return. Even if i have to find a different job to do it.
Hmmm, I guess I should get to work. . .lord knows I have alot to do before I roll off so, for now. . .laters!

At long last. . .really nothing bad to right about! Hooray! Things are moving in a more positive direction of late. I am moved into the permanent apartment and am working hard to keep it looking swanky and new (which is hard living with a 19 year old who hasn't quite picked up the concept of laundry). I am getting things accomplished at work. I have gotten more information on the next gig, which is alot to swallow. The new contract wants me to actually MOVE to San Diego for a year, so they don't have to pay to fly me back and forth cross country. Would I do it? Perhaps. I always said I would move back to CA in a heart beat if I could find a job that would pay for my move. . perhaps this is it. OR do i continue to pay rent for my apartment in DC and enjoy an apartment in San Diego that the company is paying for? So much to think about! The tenative start date is mid December, so I have time to mull it over.
Things with the boy are about the same, though I have fully moved into my Sugar Daddy role. I have been so excited to see him in his element in Chicago that not only have I reserved the suite in my name, I also bought the airline tickets to get out there. . .I know what you are thinking. . ."You are an idiot!" "You are letting him rule you!" "He is just going to hurt you!" I know. . .believe me I know. . .but, I have to admit. A big part of me really enjoys throwing money around. Its wrong, I know. . . I should be saving, I should be buying myself things rather than the boytoy. In time, it will wear off I am sure.
Saw an amazing concert on Monday. Went with my bud Rob to see Jason Mraz at Constitution Hall. It was awesome! He played for over 2 and a half hours! Also caught Max Payne on Sunday. Not a bad movie, not great either. I LOVE the video game, and was happy to see some of the creepiness in the movie, as well as the familiar sound effects that haunted me in one of the levels for 3 days straight!
Not much else to report. I am just working alot and sleeping very little. I can't remember the last time I got more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep!
My favorite holiday is right around the corner! Hooray! Halloween just ROCKS!

Its Friday! Hooray! Well, the day has FINALLY come to move into my new place. The temporary apartment was swanky and nice, but I am looking forward to a place with a bedroom door, more cabinet space and a storage room! No more boxes stacked up in the corner!
So, I have set myself up for quite an adventure next month. I made reservations to journey to Chicago to attend the Midwest Fur Fest. What is this you may ask? Well, its a Furry convention. What's a Furry you may ask. . . wikipedia has some good information on this subculture. . .http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Furry_fandom
I am very much intregued by this sub culture, and when the Boy invited to me to come along with him and his furry friends, how could I say no!? Stay tuned for that blog entry, I will be sure to include pictures and many stories.