So, this year is starting off with a bang of sorts. I have a new gig, with the US Air Force, working on the Bolling Air Force Base. I am currently in the San Francisco area attending a class, and am catching up with some old friends. . . . .but first this past weekend. . . . .
I was invited to one of my bartenders from Freddie's after holiday party. Such a nice affair. I brought the boy down a day early, had dinner down by the beach, looked at the ocean than ran back to the car to escape the 9 degree weather! We had a good time, shopping, hanging out and just enjoying each other's company. We were joined by some friends, and went out for a night of craziness. . .good times, late nights. . . .ahhhh Rehoboth. So, we go to this wonderful party. Good food, plenty of booze, and fun people, then head to the bars. . .and this is where things kind of fall apart. The boy decided that it was HIS vacation and wanted to have some fun. He jumped straight onto the dance floor and went at it with the first people he came in contact with, a couple from the party we had just come from. Now, I have had my issues with him before, and this is one of them. He is so free and unadulterated when he dances, he loses track of where he is and just let go. . .making out with people and being completely slutty. . . .
We got into it, I confronted him and he threw right back that I need to move on and find someone age appropriate. . fair enough, true enough. So, he decided to take off and leave us behind. Unfortunately, I had to leave early the next morning for a flight and left him behind. Probably the hardest thing I have ever done, but I had no choice. I arranged for another ride back, but haven't seen him, but he is ok and got back in time for work.
Ok, before the comments come in about what are you doing, why are you letting this stuff go on, I have it under control. .no worries. . . .ok, so now I am in the San Fran area, hooray! I spent this evening with an old friend who I haven't seen in YEARS! It was good to catch up, and hear about his wife and 2 children! So, tomorrow night is hanging with an ex, who now is dating a woman. . huh? I know! Well, to be fair, the old friend who has a wife and kids was kind of my original boy toy. He was 19 and I was 25 when we moved to Richmond together and slept together, in the same bed, and enjoyed each other ummmm, physically. I see a pattern, a pattern that was not apparent previously, seeing him again, after so many years and remembering our relationship makes me realize that I have a Daddy complex. . .yes, I know this is not surprising for you, but it is for me. I didn't think of my self as parental in any way, but now I see that I crave helping young people traverse life and learn to be about life. Weird huh? So, I see now that I need to focus back on me, back on my happiness and not teach, not guide, but live my life.
I look forward to seeing my other ex-gay ex and, the other friend, who I haven't seen since he was 16! He was a model, and is now working on getting a degree in acting. I am so excited. . then, finish the trip off with an age appropriate bar hopping spree in the Castro. . .hooray! Back in DC this weekend! Hooray for Obama!
I was invited to one of my bartenders from Freddie's after holiday party. Such a nice affair. I brought the boy down a day early, had dinner down by the beach, looked at the ocean than ran back to the car to escape the 9 degree weather! We had a good time, shopping, hanging out and just enjoying each other's company. We were joined by some friends, and went out for a night of craziness. . .good times, late nights. . . .ahhhh Rehoboth. So, we go to this wonderful party. Good food, plenty of booze, and fun people, then head to the bars. . .and this is where things kind of fall apart. The boy decided that it was HIS vacation and wanted to have some fun. He jumped straight onto the dance floor and went at it with the first people he came in contact with, a couple from the party we had just come from. Now, I have had my issues with him before, and this is one of them. He is so free and unadulterated when he dances, he loses track of where he is and just let go. . .making out with people and being completely slutty. . . .
We got into it, I confronted him and he threw right back that I need to move on and find someone age appropriate. . fair enough, true enough. So, he decided to take off and leave us behind. Unfortunately, I had to leave early the next morning for a flight and left him behind. Probably the hardest thing I have ever done, but I had no choice. I arranged for another ride back, but haven't seen him, but he is ok and got back in time for work.
Ok, before the comments come in about what are you doing, why are you letting this stuff go on, I have it under control. .no worries. . . .ok, so now I am in the San Fran area, hooray! I spent this evening with an old friend who I haven't seen in YEARS! It was good to catch up, and hear about his wife and 2 children! So, tomorrow night is hanging with an ex, who now is dating a woman. . huh? I know! Well, to be fair, the old friend who has a wife and kids was kind of my original boy toy. He was 19 and I was 25 when we moved to Richmond together and slept together, in the same bed, and enjoyed each other ummmm, physically. I see a pattern, a pattern that was not apparent previously, seeing him again, after so many years and remembering our relationship makes me realize that I have a Daddy complex. . .yes, I know this is not surprising for you, but it is for me. I didn't think of my self as parental in any way, but now I see that I crave helping young people traverse life and learn to be about life. Weird huh? So, I see now that I need to focus back on me, back on my happiness and not teach, not guide, but live my life.
I look forward to seeing my other ex-gay ex and, the other friend, who I haven't seen since he was 16! He was a model, and is now working on getting a degree in acting. I am so excited. . then, finish the trip off with an age appropriate bar hopping spree in the Castro. . .hooray! Back in DC this weekend! Hooray for Obama!
posted by Mark at 10:34 PM
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It's been a year, about time for an update?
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