At long last. . .really nothing bad to right about! Hooray! Things are moving in a more positive direction of late. I am moved into the permanent apartment and am working hard to keep it looking swanky and new (which is hard living with a 19 year old who hasn't quite picked up the concept of laundry). I am getting things accomplished at work. I have gotten more information on the next gig, which is alot to swallow. The new contract wants me to actually MOVE to San Diego for a year, so they don't have to pay to fly me back and forth cross country. Would I do it? Perhaps. I always said I would move back to CA in a heart beat if I could find a job that would pay for my move. . perhaps this is it. OR do i continue to pay rent for my apartment in DC and enjoy an apartment in San Diego that the company is paying for? So much to think about! The tenative start date is mid December, so I have time to mull it over.
Things with the boy are about the same, though I have fully moved into my Sugar Daddy role. I have been so excited to see him in his element in Chicago that not only have I reserved the suite in my name, I also bought the airline tickets to get out there. . .I know what you are thinking. . ."You are an idiot!" "You are letting him rule you!" "He is just going to hurt you!" I know. . .believe me I know. . .but, I have to admit. A big part of me really enjoys throwing money around. Its wrong, I know. . . I should be saving, I should be buying myself things rather than the boytoy. In time, it will wear off I am sure.
Saw an amazing concert on Monday. Went with my bud Rob to see Jason Mraz at Constitution Hall. It was awesome! He played for over 2 and a half hours! Also caught Max Payne on Sunday. Not a bad movie, not great either. I LOVE the video game, and was happy to see some of the creepiness in the movie, as well as the familiar sound effects that haunted me in one of the levels for 3 days straight!
Not much else to report. I am just working alot and sleeping very little. I can't remember the last time I got more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep!
My favorite holiday is right around the corner! Hooray! Halloween just ROCKS!

Its Friday! Hooray! Well, the day has FINALLY come to move into my new place. The temporary apartment was swanky and nice, but I am looking forward to a place with a bedroom door, more cabinet space and a storage room! No more boxes stacked up in the corner!
So, I have set myself up for quite an adventure next month. I made reservations to journey to Chicago to attend the Midwest Fur Fest. What is this you may ask? Well, its a Furry convention. What's a Furry you may ask. . . wikipedia has some good information on this subculture. . .http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Furry_fandom
I am very much intregued by this sub culture, and when the Boy invited to me to come along with him and his furry friends, how could I say no!? Stay tuned for that blog entry, I will be sure to include pictures and many stories.

Well, my hell year just keeps getting better and better.



As if I didn't have enough going on, I had the misfortune of getting rearended by a Metro Bus on my way home from work on Friday. Good times, good times. . .although my car is still drivable, it breaks my heart that my first brand new car only remained brand new for 3 months. . .ugh! I have blogged before about my unbelievable bad luck, but this is getting ridiculous!



Weekend was pretty good, nothing too exciting to report. Saw an amazing production of 110 Degrees in the Shade out at Kensington Arts Theater. I must say the performances were amazing, not that I am surprised. I had never heard the music before and was really impressed with the melodies and the fun of the music. I was truly proud of the cast for a fantastic production.



The boy has finally secured an apartment, which he is moving into late November/Early December. I am so torn as to whether I am relieved or bummed about this. I have been having a hard time maintaining the fact that he is 19, not looking for a relationship, maintains a restaurant schedule of sleeping most of the day, and hanging out until the wee hours, and is trying to meet people and make friends in DC. Intellectually, I know that I have, yet again, attached myself emotionally to someone that does not desire my affections. Physically, yeah we are having lots of fun, but its the expectations that I have that leave me constantly weepy and sad. It is what it is, I knew that from the beginning, but somehow thought I could handle it. . .but the fact remains I am keeping myself in a situation where I am unable to open up to the possibility of a relationship with someone who is looking for the same thing. Most people have their nights of passion with younger men, then move on. . mine moved in!



I do it to myself, and I have no business lamenting on that fact. I accepted him into my life, I allow him to come and go as he pleases. I set these expectations that will never be met. Perhaps its time for a time out for me from the stress of the job, the lack of artistic release, lack of sleep. My bosses tell me that I will be getting a break between gigs. . .oh, which reminds me. . .my next gig! I received an email from my boss last week stating that my next gig will finally allow me to travel to places other than Baltimore. Specifically San Diego and Ann Arbor, MI. It is a 6 month gig, and during those six month, I will be travelling 1 week a month to San Diego, 1 week a month to Ann Arbor then working from home the other two weeks a month. Not too shabby. This is the test of whether I am able to do this or not. I am looking forward to the challenge!